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April 29th, 2008 (10:12 pm)

 Wow, it's been a while since I've updated.

Okay.
Got my license, got a car. As of earlier today, my car has been named Ophelia. 'Cause my car is CRAZY.
... Cool.

Though hopefully it won't kill itself in a river singing songs to itself. *shrugs*

Bwahahaha I love Shakespeare way too much.

And for the record, MARLOWE WILL NEVER COMPARE.
sdfoigjsoifhoh.

Just so everyone knows that. Shakespeare is superior in EVERY way.
Just because they're contemporaries doesn't mean SHIT.

... Aaaaahahahaha. Oh, I'm an English major now.

In case you couldn't tell by the literary rants.

I'll be starting voice lessons up again! My instructor's name is Bulent Guneralp. I can't wait to start lessons with him! He sounds pretty cool and stuff, and has a crazy impressive resume. :D

And I figure I can go into Quincy College and visit Professor Dooner.
Who I'm going to miss like crazy. I've seen him almost every day for the past two months.
No, I'm not like in love with him or anything weird like that. He's gay for Chrissakes. Though one never would have suspected.  But I respect him and look up to him more than anyone else.

And it's because of him I've made my ultimate life decision:
I'm not going to marry.
I've seen the life he lives. Beholden to no one, needing to answer to no one, able to do what he wants (within reason).
No need to compromise.
No need to bother paying attention to someone else in his household. He can read. He can memorize a soliloquy. He can watch Disney, for Christ's sake!
I want that.

I don't want to compromise. I want to come home to a quiet house, with no one on my ass. I want to be in control of my own fate. I want to be able to spend my time reading, not tending to someone else's emotional needs.
If I want sex, I'll join a swinger's group.
When it comes time, I'll pick my own goddamn nursing home.

Meh. *shrug* That's just my way of thinking.

I'm dreading finals. I don't want this semester to be over. I don't want to work all the fucking time. I want to go to school, take summer classes.
What student wants that?
No normal student, that's for damn sure.
But I do.
But nope. No luck. Gotta work. 
Fuckin... fuck it.

Lots more going on in my head, but I don't really want to post about it.

Comments

Posted by: Sakurakon (sakurakon)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 10:54 am (UTC)
Cooro~

I miss you so much~!
I swear I'm going to sprout wings and fly over to...wherever you are living right now.
=P

Posted by: fragilexo (fragilexo)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 06:55 pm (UTC)

I miss you too, sunshine!
And it's Scituate, Massachusetts, sweetheart. :)

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Posted by: fragilexo (fragilexo)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 06:56 pm (UTC)

Blarrrrgh, no. I want to live alone.

I want to come home to quiet. A cat, maybe.

But no people.

Posted by: galleon_lore (galleon_lore)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 02:46 pm (UTC)

I'd take school over work in a heartbeat...well. Provided that the school actually teaches stuff, and doesn't just try to bury you in menial busywork.

Marriage is an archaic institution, originally based around the concept that one's daughters qualified as livestock and were to be traded for the same. Relationships can be great, and friends-with-benefits packages can be better, but marriage is just plain pointless unless you want a break on your taxes.

And any significant other who won't let their mate watch Disney needs to be shot. Several times. With the SAME. ARROW.

Posted by: fragilexo (fragilexo)
Posted at: April 30th, 2008 06:54 pm (UTC)
goth girl

Professor Dooner, the one I mentioned.. he is one of the rare professors who truly teaches. That's why I respect him so much, that's why I'm a freaking English major. You'd like him, I think. :) It's hard not to.

Marriage... is a lot of things. It's right for many people; that's why so many cultures have it as an institution. However, it's not an institution I feel is right for me.

The point to that sentence was that most "adults" CHOOSE not to watch Disney, unless if watching it with their children.
Professor Dooner has no children.
He watches it for the sheer enjoyment. He can watch what he wants, when he wants, with no one to say differently.
I want that.

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